Marc
Colbeck, CCP,
on a paramedic's
view of chaplains
and codes
I
am a Critical
Care Paramedic
with 13 years
and (my best
guess) about
500-700 cardiac
arrests worth
of experience.
As a paramedic,
usually the
highest trained
medical professional
on scene, it
has been my
responsibility
to run the
cardiac arrest,
perform the
most invasive
procedures
and, most relevantly,
to decide who
gets to stay
in the room
(or the ambulance)
and who doesn't.
I
was very interested
to read Dr.
Peery's article
and appreciate
his explanation
of the difficulties
involved in
this situation,
as well as
his suggestion
to err on the
side of allowing
the family
to be present
during the
code. When
I first started
running codes,
I have to admit
that I was
pretty overwhelmed,
but as I became
clinically
comfortable,
I started to
pay focused
attention to
the family
and friends
of the patient,
as well as
to the other
providers who
participated
in running
the code.
My
experience
has been that
with the appropriate
attention,
it is almost
always a positive
situation to
have the family
present during
codes, as long
as this is
what they choose.
There
is a definite
knack to speaking
to people witnessing
their loved
ones being
resuscitated
and I think
that chaplains
have a meaningful
role to play.
Important elements
of a code include
letting the
loved ones
know exactly
what is going
on ("Their
heart has stopped
and right now
they're not
breathing,
so we have
put in a breathing
tube and are
breathing for
them, and we're
doing CPR to
make their
heart pump
blood"),
what we are
doing ("We’re
about to give
some very powerful
drugs that
we hope will
restart their
heart, it will
take a few
minutes to
see whether
or not they
work" or "We
are going to
defibrillate,
which means
we are going
to put a small
amount of electricity
into their
heart to see
if we can reset
their heart's
electrical
system and
make it work
normally"),
what we hope
to accomplish
by these actions
("Hopefully
their heart
will start
beating due
to the drug
stimulation
and oxygen
we're giving
them" or "We
should see
right away
if the defibrillation
works; we'll
see the results
on this screen
here. I'll
tell you what
happens")
and finally
a realistic
prognosis for
their loved
ones, this
includes pronouncing
death as well
as (quite often)
letting the
family know
that even though
we started
their loved-one's
heart again,
it doesn't
guarantee that
their brain
will have survived
the arrest.
They may never
wake up.
I'm
glad to see
chaplain's
actively examining
their role
in a cardiac
arrest –I
would LOVE
to have chaplains
working with
us in the ambulances!
If
I could offer
advice to anyone
wishing to
provide support
to witnesses
of cardiac
arrests (friends,
family and
medical professionals,
too) it would
be to first
of all ensure
that YOU are
comfortable
in this setting.
It's difficult
to watch people
die, and many
of our own
deeper issues
can be triggered
during a code.
Secondly, it
would be helpful
to clarify
ahead of time
what the chaplain's
role is with
the medical
team. The chaplain
may know this,
but this information
isn't included
in our medical
education,
so we clinicians
need to have
an idea beyond "they're
here for the
family." I
would also
strongly suggest
that a chaplain
learn in a
general way
what is going
on medically
in a cardiac
arrest and
practice how
to present
this simply,
factually and
helpfully to
friends and
family. Perhaps
a focused,
one-day seminar
with a willing
doctor or nurse
could be set
up to convey
this information.
I see this
as an invaluable
role that chaplains
could play.
I can't imagine
a clinician
being upset
to hear a chaplain
describing
why a patient
is being intubated
or defibrillated
(which are
both distressing
to watch and
are important
to explain).
At the same
time, as a
clinician there
are things
that I need
to tell the
family. I don't
want a chaplain
to pronounce
death before
I do! This
is the sort
of teamwork
that needs
to be established
ahead of time.
Finally,
a chaplain
needs to be
aware of the
state of the
medical providers
involved in
the arrest.
Many of us
are actually
quite comfortable
with 'routine'
cardiac arrests,
but I still
hate watching
children die.
It gets me
every time.
A sensitive
chaplain could
offer a word
of support
or a chance
to share a
coffee with
providers if
they seem to
need it, especially
if a trusting
relationship
has been set
up in advance.
Thank
you for making
for publication
available on
the Internet,
I find it very
interesting.
I hope my comments
are in some
way helpful.
Marc
Colbeck worked
as an inner-city
Paramedic for
the City of
Toronto for
13 years and
now teaches
Paramedicine
at the College
of the North
Atlantic in
Qatar, where
he lives with
his wife and
two children.
He is qualified
as a Critical
Care Paramedic,
and an ACLS
Course Director.
His undergrad
is a Bachelors
of Health Science
(PreHospital
Care). He has
practiced Zen
Buddhism for
20 years, is
a student of
Sensei Graef
of the Vermont
Zen Centre,
and (if the
universe allows
it) would love
to take the
M. Div. program
at Naropa!
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Advocacy |
Rev. Dr. Martha R. Jacobs on a systematic
look at quality in pastoral care
Professional
Chaplains and Health Care Quality Improvement
As chaplains, many of us have,
for years, been working to better understand
and be integrated into institutional and
departmental quality improvement projects.
To assist in this endeavor, The Hastings
Center has convened a one-year research project
in partnership with The HealthCare Chaplaincy
and Rush University Medical Center to explore
how quality of care is understood within
the “professionalizing”profession
of chaplaincy; the challenges inherent in
defining, measuring, and improving quality
in less-standardized areas of health care
delivery; and the current and potential role
of chaplaincy in improving the quality of
health care in the United States.
This project includes an interdisciplinary
working group of staff, consultants, and
outside experts, and an IRB-approved qualitative
research study, consisting of focus groups
with professional chaplains in the New York
City, Chicago, San Francisco, and Phoenix
areas.
By describing the ethics of quality in health
care in terms of chaplaincy, the products
of this project will:
- help chaplaincy directors create substantive,
ethically sound quality improvement programs
for their departments, and contribute to
organizational QI efforts;
- help health care administrators better
understand the profession of chaplaincy
and the current and potential role of the
chaplain in the delivery of quality care
to patients and their families;
- help professional organizations within
chaplaincy, and organizations whose standards
and guidelines cover chaplaincy, address
the challenge of applying existing measures
of quality in health care to this profession.
These products will also contribute to the
still-small body of empirical research on
chaplains and chaplaincy, and will identify
opportunities for further research and education.
Planned products include:
•A peer-reviewed article analyzing current quality standards relevant to
chaplaincy
•A peer-reviewed article on the project’s empirical findings
•A final report, with ethical analysis and recommendations
Audiences for this project include:
•Senior health care administrators
•Chaplaincy directors, staff chaplains, and professional organizations in
chaplaincy
•Health policy scholars, professionals, and organizations
A website has been established to enable
all interested in this project to follow
the progress. Go to http://www.thehastingscenter.org/research/professional-chaplains-quality-improvement-health-care.asp to
stay up-to-date on where we are with this
research project.
Periodic updates will also appear in PlainViews.
Rev. Dr. Martha R. Jacobs is Managing Editor
of PlainViews.
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Education
& Research |
Chaplain Sharon A. Frank on releasing one
back to God
A
Neonatal Service of Love and Remembrance
I had the privilege of sharing this service
with a family who had a child in our New
Born Intensive Care unit for five months.
Eventually, the parents, with the support
of the staff, had to make the decision to “release
him back to God.”(These were the parent's
words.) I was asked by the family to put
a service together for a tree planting and
release of the ashes. I checked resources
and couldn't find much that fit the situation.
A couple chaplain colleagues here at Dartmouth
Hitchcock Medical Center helped me out. I
searched through my memorial file and found
a few poems and then went to my ol' standby –The
Psalms –for praying.
When I finished the service I was amazed
at how well everything came together. I felt
guided by a spirit as I was typing. I have
used some of the readings in other services
for children. This family had chosen to play
soft music in the background –like
they did for their child in NICU. Others
might choose to insert music into the service.
It is my hope that this can be a resource
for others.
A Service of Love
and Remembrance
Celebrating the Gift of
(name of the child)
(Date of the service)
“Into the freedom of the wind and
sunshine, into the dance of the stars, into
the hands of the star-maker, into the promise
of Easter, we let you go.”
Invocation
We gather together in this sacred space to recognize the sacredness of life.
We come together to remember, if we could ever forget, (child’s name).
We remember the gift of his/her life and what he/she gave to his/her family
and those who cared for him/her. May this time help to bring solace to those
who still hold him/her close to their hearts. May this time hold our grief
and be a quilt of comfort.
The Readings:
Some People by F. Weedn
Some people come into our lives and leave
footprints on our hearts and we are never
ever the same. Some people come into our
lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while
and embrace our silent dreams. They help
us become aware of the delicate winds of
hope and we discover within every human spirit
there are wings yearning to fly. They help
our hearts to see that the only stairway
to the stars is woven with dreams and we
find ourselves unafraid to reach high. They
celebrate the true essence of who we are
and have faith in all that we may become.
Some people awaken us to new and deeper realizations
for we gain insight from the passing whisper
of their wisdom. Throughout our lives we
are sent precious souls, meant to share our
journey however brief or lasting, their stay
reminds us why we are here; to learn, to
teach, to nurture and to love. Some people
come into our lives and they move our souls
to sing and make our spirits dance. They
help us to see that everything on earth is
part of the incredibility of life and that
it is always there for us to take of its
joy.
So (child’s name) came into our lives
and left footprints on our hearts and we
will never ever be the same.
Time by J. Gray
Time is the precious gift of ourselves that
we bestow on one another.
It is the prayer we offer together; the laughter we share; the sorrow we endure.
It is tears and quiet listening. A gentle touch, a quiet word.
Time is forever, the care we give to each other. It gives us precious glimpses
of God’s love.
Time is at last God’s promise, which then becomes our Hope.
Everything is made beautiful –in God’s time.
Love Lives On by Mary Ramish
Love is also a common theme to those whom
I love and those who love me.
When I am gone, release me, let me go.
I have so many things to see and do.
You must not tie yourself to me with tears.
Be happy that I was here. I gave you my love, you can only guess how much you
gave me in happiness.
I thank you for the love each one of you has shown. But now it is time I traveled
on.
So grieve a while for me, if grieve you
must. Then let your grief be comforted by
trust. It is only for a while that we must
part.
So bless the memories in your heart.
I will not be far away, for life goes on.
So if you need me, call and I will come. Though you cannot see or touch me.
I will be near and if you listen with your heart, you will hear all of my love
around you soft and clear.
Then, when you must, come this way and I will greet you with a smile and “welcome
you to my heavenly home.”
Memories of the Child Shared by
All
Sometimes by M. Updyke
Sometimes, memories are like rain showers,
sprinkling down upon you, catching you unaware
and then they are gone, leaving you warm
and refreshed.
Sometimes, memories are like thunderstorms,
beating down upon you, relentless in their
downpour, and then they will cease, leaving
you tired and bruised.
Sometimes, memories are like shadows sneaking
up behind you, following you around. Then
they disappear leaving you sad and confused.
Sometimes, memories are like quilts, surrounding
you with warmth, luxuriously abundant and
sometimes they stay, wrapping you in contentment.
Tree Planting & Joining of Spirits
We are gathered today for two purposes:
to remember and to plant. In remembering:
we hold again in our minds’eye and
ears the sweet child who left our arms, but
who never left our hearts. We see again his/her
face, his/her hands and feet. We remember
the tenderness, the determination, the challenges
and the special times. We remember flesh
against flesh, the grasp of small fingers.
As we look back in memory, also we look
ahead in planting. The young tree planted
here is a symbol of a future that we believe
in, even though we cannot see it, and things
didn’t turn out as we had planned.
We plant not in spite of our sorrow, but
because of it. Not hindered by tears, but
encouraged by them. The love of this child
was planted in our hearts and now this tree
symbolizes that love. Over the years, this
tree will grow and it will stand as a symbol
of his/her life. The life cycle of this tree
will remind us of those times in the human
life cycle of welcoming and saying good-bye.
Reading of Psalm 125
Those who put their trust in You are like
giant trees standing firm and rooted deep.
As the trees grow strong in fertile soil,
so we mature in the garden of Love, nourished
by the Word of Life. For the weeds of fear,
the tares of ignorance, find no home here;
they are soon cast out. As each flower in
its uniqueness blessed the garden, the interconnectedness
of all brings it to fulfillment. Those whose
lives reflect goodness and integrity, become
mirrors to Love’s way. They are like
fragrant blossoms that bring joy to all around
them, like open invitations for others to
come. Enter the garden of love.
Closing Prayer
Loving and comforting God, bless our gathering
this day. Bless this tree and our planting
of it as a constant memorial to (child’s
name). May its roots prosper and give strength,
may its green leaves bring coolness in the
heat of summer, and its red leaves, warmth
of soul in autumn. And may its bare branches
in winter remind us that what sleeps, will
awaken, what dies, will be transformed and
what has passed, will be reborn. May the
birds that dwell in this tree’s branches
sing forth the songs we have learned with
them: that we shall never be the same. AMEN
Chaplain Sharon A. Frank has been a Chaplain/ACPE
Supervisor at Dartmouth Hitchcock Medical Center
in Lebanon, NH, for 12 years. She was ordained
an elder in the United Methodist Church in
1981 and is a member of the Northern Illinois
Conference. She did her SIT training at Lutheran
General Hospital in Park Ridge, Illinois, graduated
from Hood College in 1977 and Garrett Evangelical
Theological Seminary in 1980. She is a Board
Certified Chaplain and a member of the System
Centered Training Institute.
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Spiritual
Development |
Chaplain Joan Keiser on attempting to make
sense
The
Incomplete Life –Or Was It?
A 22 year-old died today as
the result of a motor vehicle accident. She
lost control of her vehicle, crossed the
center line and was hit head-on. She suffered
a traumatic brain injury which resulted in
brain death.
She had been married five years and was
a hard worker at a warehouse. God had gifted
her with the ability to play the guitar,
the mandolin and the piano. She sang with
her family at church and other community
gatherings about God’s grace and love.
Her husband told me, “She brought joy
to all those she knew . . . she got along
well with everyone.”
She had been working two hours extra every
day the week prior to her accident. She was,
no doubt, tired and may have fallen asleep
at the wheel as she was driving home. She
chose not to wear a seat belt.
We are a society that is living longer nowadays
and so when someone 22 years old dies, we
feel that is just “too young”or
that it is “an incomplete life.”
Some say it is God’s plan while others
feel the choices we make cause life to end
too soon. What if she had chosen to wear
her seat belt? What if she had not worked
those extra hours? What if . . . we continue
to attempt to make sense out of what happened.
Scripture asks: “What is your life?
You are a mist that appears for a little
while and then vanishes . . . you ought to
say, 'If it is the Lord’s will, we
will live and do this or that.'”(James
4:14b, 15)
In the book Five Things We Cannot Change,
author David Richo talks about things in
life over which we have no control and lists
five “unavoidable givens.”One
of those five givens is: Things do not always
go according to plan.
It seemed to her family and, perhaps, to all who were aware of her death that
the 22-year-old girl had an incomplete life. Was it? Or, was it a life made
complete with death to life as we know it?
Chaplain Joan Keiser has been a chaplain
at St. John's Hospital, Springfield, MO, for
the past 10 years. She completed her four units
of CPE at St. John's Hospital. Joan has a certificate
of Religious Studies from Loyola Institute
for Ministry, Loyola University, New Orleans.
She is a licensed local pastor serving at Rogersville
United Methodist Church. Her areas of hospital
ministry are: Neuro-Trauma ICU, Neuro-Intermediate/Stroke
Center, Breast Center, and Endoscopy. Joan
also serves on the Springfield Stroke Coalition
and is a member of the Mid-America Transplant
Collaborative for Organ Donation, representing
St. John's Hospital. She is currently applying
for Board certification. She is married, has
two children and six grandchildren.
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BioethicsWalk |
BioethicsWalk addresses
bioethical issues that chaplains face in
their day-to-day work. PlainViews invites
our readers to share their responses to each BioethicsWalk column,
which will be published in the following
issue. We also invite our readers to submit
areas of concern/interest about which they
would like Nancy to write.
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Please put the phrase “BioethicsWalk”
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We look forward to hearing
from you.
Can
anyone hear your prophetic voice?: the
ethics of speaking up
You can learn a lot about what’s going
on in health care in a state by talking with
chaplains at their state meetings. In states
with ageing populations, we talk about chaplaincy
in long-term care, nursing homes, assisted
living. In states with younger populations,
we talk about chaplaincy in ob-gyn and pediatrics.
In states with changing demographics, we
talk about the challenges of providing chaplaincy
services to newer community residents, who
may bring different religious, cultural,
and economic factors into the mix, and of
balancing their needs with the needs of longtime
residents.
During one such discussion, a chaplain,
sitting in the back of the room, mentioned
the “prophetic voice”he and his
colleagues brought to their work. I was curious:
How was this chaplain using his prophetic
voice as a health care professional? I needed
examples. “Well . . . . I’m on
the ethics committee.”With that, everyone
in the room turned around in their seats. “We’re all on
the ethics committee –that’s
just filling a seat at a table!”They
had a point.
The “prophetic voice,”in seminary
shorthand, is that voice that calls attention
to social injustice and holds society accountable
for its care or neglect of its most vulnerable
members: the widow, the orphan, the stranger
at the gate. Acute-care hospitals are perhaps
the one institution in American society recognizably
organized in these terms: in principle at
least, the stranger at the gate (or in the
ambulance) will be taken in and cared for.
We know that this is not always how it works.
We know about the 46 million uninsured. We
know that our health care system is not organized
in ways Isaiah would approve of. And we know
what we are called to do when we call ourselves
health care professionals: to align ourselves
with the best interests of those who suffer,
and to work to improve the quality of their
health care.
Simply being a health care professional,
or a member of a particular profession, is
not a guarantee that we will do this every
day. It is easy to substitute “I’m
on the ethics committee”for “In
practice, I speak up for patients’best
interests, and whenever I learn that care
is organized in ways that do not serve patients’interests.”And
there are chaplains who will say, isn’t
justice-seeking the patient rep’s job?
Isn’t my job to “be with”the
patient and family, to help relieve their
suffering through my presence and my skills?
Shirley Otis-Green is social worker and
palliative care specialist at City of Hope
National Medical Center near Los Angeles.
Her mission is to encourage the “being
with”professions in health care –chaplains,
social workers, psychologists –to find
their prophetic voices, to speak up for patients.
Otis-Green runs a training project called
Advancing Clinical Excellence (ACE), which
is funded by the National Cancer Institute.
According to the project’s website,
participants will be trained “to become
more effective role models and advocates
for enhanced palliative, end-of-life and
bereavement care within their institutions
and disciplines.”These advocates are
not meant to be lone voices crying in the
managed-care wilderness. ACE is committed
to transprofessional education, to teaching
participants how to work as interdisciplinary
palliative care teams and to collaborate
as advocates for better care.
In this vision of advocacy, “being
with”entails the ethical obligation, “being
for.”Speaking up is part of the job,
and will be until all patients have access
to high quality palliative care when they
need it. The ACE Project’s vision challenges
chaplains working in all areas of health
care to think about the ethics of speaking
up –and of keeping silent.
For more information about the ACE Project,
visit: www.cityofhope.org/ACEproject
Nancy Berlinger is Deputy Director and
Research Associate at The Hastings Center.
Her research interests focus on clinical ethics
and include end of life care; ethics in health
care chaplaincy; conscientious objection and
moral distress in health care; and patient
safety and the resolution of medical harm.
Her broader interests include bioethics issues
in cancer care, narrative ethics, and medical
humanities. As Deputy Director, she
manages the Center’s organizational capacity-building
initiative, Bioethics and the Public Interest,
which has received major support from the Ford
Foundation. Berlinger is the author
of After Harm: Medical Error and the Ethics
of Forgiveness
(Johns Hopkins, 2005), which
will be released in paperback in fall 2007.
She serves on the ethics research group of
the Joint Commission, the ethics faculty of
the American Society of Healthcare Risk Managers
(ASHRM), the bioethics committees at Montefiore
Medical Center, Bronx, New York and at Richmond
of New York, and the editorial board of Medical
Ethics Advisor
. She is a frequent presenter
at grand rounds and other ethics education
programs for health care professionals. She
volunteers on the Chaplaincy Service at Memorial
Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in New York City.
She is a graduate of Smith College and
holds the Ph.D. in English Literature from
the University of Glasgow and the M.Div.
in Christian Ethics from Union Theological
Seminary.
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LongView |
Jane E. Babin, J.D., on being changed by
disease
Living
and Dying With Hope
I am the face of disease. I
am the voice of disease. I am one of millions
of faces and voices that need to be heard,
that wants to be known. I am one of many,
and yet, like others, I am unique. My story
is different from theirs and yet the same.
Listen to my story and see the faces, hear
the voices of the many, and remember……….
My journey began in August of 2003. It had
been a wonderful summer. I was off on summer
break from my job as a university professor.
I was enjoying time with my then 6-year-old
son at our neighborhood beach on a lake in
central New Hampshire. Oftentimes, my friend
Dan and I would go down to the beach and
sit on a large rock that protrudes out into
the lake. Dan was blessed with a fantastic
rhythm and blues voice and writes his own
songs, to which I would add harmony. We would
perform his new material to kayakers and
canoeists who would stop and listen, applaud
and give feedback. After 4 years of divorce,
although still unattached, I was finally
starting to have fun again, to enjoy life
once more. Then, a simple fall when dismounting
my bicycle –a very simple fall –changed
the course of my life. At first just one
fall, but then I experienced a second and
third one. Dan, would laugh and remark on
what a “klutz”I was becoming.
I would laugh, too, acknowledging my lack
of coordination.
It wasn’t until I was walking the
short distance home from the beach a few
weeks later that I realized something was
wrong. I had to keep stopping. My left foot
was not able to flex properly. It was now
September; I was on sabbatical leave from
the university and teaching an on-line graduate
course from home. I called my sister, a nurse
practitioner, who advised me to call my physician
immediately. My sister was soon to become
my greatest ally in my quest to get answers.
Although I did not know it at the time,
those simple falls, the difficult walk home
were to be the beginning of the end of my
life. Over the course of the next few months,
I went from one doctor to another, attempting
to find a name for what was happening to
me. In January of 2004, I was referred to
a well-know clinic outside of Boston, to
a neurologist who ordered a painful test
consisting of sticking long needles deep
into my muscles and sending an electrical
pulse to measure the ability of my nerves
to communicate with those muscles. Unfortunately,
they were not speaking to each other.
I remember two important things about that
visit to this clinic:
1. The neurologist recently had knee surgery,
was in discomfort, and left to go home
before my appointment was finished. He
left the testing to technicians and to
a physician who came in near the completion
of the tests. I remember lying on the examination
table, frightened, in pain, tears running
down my face. The substitute doctor compassionately
rubbed my arm, trying to comfort me. After
the tests, she very calmly told me that
she could not say definitively, but that
it might be amyotrophic lateral sclerosis,
ALS, Lou Gehrig’s disease. I drove
home to New Hampshire with my sister, in
shock, in silence.
2. The physician who went home with the
aching knee called me the next morning
to tell me, over the phone, that I, in
fact, had ALS, and he gave me 3-5 years
to live. I was alone to take this call.
I remember thinking then that no one should
ever have to hear the news that they are
dying over the telephone.
Needless to say, I did not return to that
clinic, but chose Massachusetts General Hospital’s
neurology department for a second opinion.
As luck, or fate, would have it, my niece,
after graduating from Dartmouth College and
before she left for Africa with the Peace
Corps, worked as a research assistant at
Mass General for a Dr. Cudkowicz, an ALS
researcher and clinician. When my niece learned
of my diagnosis, she spoke with Dr. Cudkowicz,
who agreed to see me.
I steeled myself emotionally for another
physician without personality, without feelings,
without compassion. I was wrong. Although
Dr. Cudkowicz confirmed the diagnosis of
ALS, she prefaced it by saying three simple
words, “I am sorry,”and I believe
she was. I believe she is sorry every time
she has to tell a patient that he or she
has a terminal illness. I could see the compassion
in her eyes; I could hear the concern in
her voice. And it was comforting. I was soon
to discover that this, unlike my other experience,
was the norm.
Before I became a victim of this dreadful
disease, I knew nothing about it. I was vaguely
familiar with the Lou Gehrig story, but I
knew no one with the disease. I did not know
that it slowly paralyzes its victims. I did
not know that it is a rare disease or that
it strikes men more frequently than women.
I did not know that it is a motor neuron
disease, that it is fatal. Once diagnosed
my ignorance put me on an accelerated learning
curve, a roller coaster ride from which there
was no escape. I would learn about ALS because
I had no choice –it was about to redefine
me, the person I was; the person I was about
to become.
All traumatic events change people. I was
now different. I had changed. I was now a
person who could not look forward to a future.
I was now a single mom who would not live
to see her son graduate from college, advance
in his career or get married. I was now a
mother who would never hold her grandchildren,
tuck them in or read them a bedtime story.
I would never dance again, or run, or swim.
I have forgotten now how it feels to walk
normally. I have forgotten what it is like
to be able to snap my fingers. I am changed,
but not all for the worse.
I have often heard from, and read about,
people suffering from serious illness who
have made statements such as, “God
blessed me with cancer,”or, “I
am a better person, a happier more fulfilled
person because of this disease.”It
was shocking to me how someone could feel “blessed”by
a disease, or conclude somehow that a disease
had made them a better, happier person. That
was before I became ill. I now understand.
I feel that I have not known true compassion,
have not experienced pure emotion prior to
having been stricken with ALS. To say that
I have met the most incredible people since
my diagnosis would be an understatement.
To say that I have witnessed the most profound
changes in my friends, my family would be
to underestimate them. Disease changes us
all.
British physicist Stephen Hawking once said
that he was “happier now”than
before he became ill. Diagnosed with ALS
in the mid-1960s, Hawking once told an interviewer, “Before,
I was very bored with life. I drank a fair
bit, I guess; I didn't do any work.... When
one's expectations are reduced to zero, one
really appreciates everything that one does
have." A long-time victim of ALS, he
miraculously lives, but he is changed. He
is unable to move most of his body, yet he
is happier. He expects nothing, yet appreciates
everything.
We are changed by disease, we are all changed,
not just the victims but those around them
as well. People with terminal illness often
fear abandonment. Will my friends, family
still be there for me as the disease takes
its course, as I become more debilitated?
I can tell you from my experience that yes,
family and friends have changed. My oldest
sister and I have grown closer because of
my illness. She often comes over to do laundry
or to buy groceries for me. My brother in
California, whom I have seen maybe ten times
since I was sixteen years old, came back
east with his family this summer to spend
a week on the lake with my son and me. I
travel to Santa Barbara next month to spend
one last time with him, to say goodbye.
My relationships with my friends have grown deeper and truer. My friends have
witnessed the physical changes in me. Yet, they know I’m still the same
quirky person with the weird sense of humor. They don’t leave me behind
or take no for an answer. I remember one evening standing outside of a local
jazz spot in our town, not wanting to go in for fear I could not negotiate
my way around the crowd in the restaurant. With this disease, I have no sense
of balance and can fall easily. My friend, Jaylene came outside, took my arm
and said, “You’re coming with me,”then proceeded to help
me through the crowd to our table. My dear friend, Phil, will often pick me
up, bring me to his house for dinner, and then drive me home. And we live on
the same block! My friends allow me to express my fears and also my humor regarding
this disease. And ALS can provide some very humorous moments! My friends are
real in spite of this disease. They accept me with all my challenges. And,
they will be there for me as this disease progresses. My friends are all into
the arts –Bob plays pipe organ, his wife, Jaylene is a beautiful soprano.
Steve is a poet and is in theatre, his friend Ginny plays flute and sings.
Phil plays piano, keyboard and oboe. I often joke with them that my funeral
will be more like a Broadway revue than a funeral. And I’ve no doubt
that it will be.
My relationship with my healthcare providers
has also evolved. Besides Dr. Cukowicz at
Mass General, I also have a primary care
provider, a local neurologist, a counselor,
a spiritual director and others who monitor
me on a regular basis. I never knew there
were so many people involved in the process
of a person dying! I am fortunate. They have
all acted with kindness and compassion over
and above my expectations.
My counselor has been my biggest supporter
in my times of crisis and despair. He has
helped me to realize that the stages of dying
- denial, sorrow, anger, and acceptance are
not mutually exclusive. I don’t go
through these stages; they go through me,
time and time again. He has unfailingly been
there for me. He has suffered with me through
the moments of anger, cried with me through
the moments of pain and despair, and laughed
with me through moments of absurdity. He
has taught me, through example, that I am
not alone with this disease. There are those
who care.
They have all given me reason to hope, not
for a cure, but for an opportunity to contribute,
for quality of life. And hope is central
to my ability to deal with dying. To quote
Martin Luther King, Jr.:
If you lose hope, somehow you lose the
vitality that keeps life moving, you lose
that courage to be, that quality that helps
you go on in spite of it all.
And so today I still have a dream.
As my night grows darker, my hope grows
brighter –I still have dreams, I still
have hopes. I hope for the opportunity to
love and feel love from those closest to
me; I hope for moments of brilliance and
creativity, to be able to meaningfully contribute
to this world; I hope that I will have quiet
moments with my son, to help him through
the changes that mommy will experience and
to help him realize that I am still the same
mommy inside, even though the outside is
changing. And, finally, I have hope that
when my mission here on Earth is completed,
that I make a peaceful transition to a place
of comfort and love.
Yes, I am the face, the voice of disease.
I am an advocate for those without voice.
I cannot explain why I got ill, why I am
dying, for it defies explanation. But I can
find purpose in what remains of my life.
I can make contributions that I hope will
bring fulfillment and joy to me and to others.
And, I can make sense of how I leave this
earth, how I relate to others and how they
relate to me in this important process of
dying.
Lastly, I can remind the medical community
that those with disease have faces, voices,
families, hopes, joys, fears and a need to
be treated with compassion and respect. I
am not just a body with disease. I am a spirit
about to fly.
This article is taken from a lecture given
at Williams College in January of 2005.
Jane E. Babin, J.D., was a law professor
at Plymouth State University in Plymouth, NH,
until she had to retire because of her ALS.
Part of her creative response to this vicious
disease was to write, and to share, which has
given her meaning and a reason to see this
process through. Jane lives in Laconia, NH.
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Case #21 (see responses below)
Ed was a 49-year-old resident who was a
quadriplegic and had resided in a skilled
nursing facility for several years. During
that time, the resident used a specially
equipped, motorized wheelchair that allowed
him to travel around the building and go
outside to smoke. As a result, many staff
throughout the building had become friends
with him. Ed developed several health complications
leading to multiple hospitalizations over
the past year. Since his most recent hospitalization
Ed had not recovered to his previous level
of functioning and had to stay in bed with
oxygen support. Ed had no cognitive impairment
and had full decision-making capacity.
The nurse practitioner working with Ed talked
to him about his situation and explained
the healthcare choices available, including
palliative care. After a good deal of time
in conversation with his doctor, the nurse
practitioner and his family, Ed came to the
conclusion that more hospitalizations would
not improve his quality of life. Ed chose
palliative care and no more hospitalizations.
Ed’s condition continued to decline
and at times he became anxious and wanted
someone to stay with him constantly. Ed had
some family support but no one close enough
to stay around the clock. Nursing and environmental
services staff voiced their concern and made
a pastoral care referral. The chaplain visited
at least twice and offered spiritual support.
The resident, who was Roman Catholic, was
appreciative of chaplain visits but also
indicated that his spiritual needs were being
met through regular visits from priests and
lay visitors from the local Catholic parish.
The chaplain arranged for regular (twice
weekly) visits from “Care Team,”volunteers
who are available to visit end-of-life care
residents.
During the last day of Ed’s life,
his son stayed with him constantly. After
the resident died, the nurse practitioner
learned that a group of nurses who disagreed
with Ed ’s decision not to be hospitalized
had gone into his room the night before he
died and tried to persuade him to go to the
hospital. She came to the chaplain with her
concerns about the ethical and spiritual
boundaries that were crossed in this situation.
What ethical issues are in conflict in this case?
What emotional/spiritual issues are present
in the persons involved in this case and
how could they be addressed?
What education/training needs to be provided
to help staff understand their role and maintain
appropriate boundaries in caring for persons
who choose palliative care over hospitalization?
What are some care giving dynamics unique
to residential, long-term care settings that
might help one understand and respond to
this situation?
Responses
This is a very brief outline of a story
that might have produced more clarity with
more detail. The story appears to be a clear
example of failure to respect patient autonomy
and self determination. The key people who
needed to be involved were involved in the
making of this decision about his plan of
care. There are no legal or social mores
violations here in the greater society. I
wonder if there was not a perception of there
being a violation or at least a conflict
in a smaller segment of Ed's social or religious
system.
This story matches many others told about
last minute stands taken by persons seeking
to act out of their own personal moral and
religious convictions to "prevent wrongful
death at all cost." You mentioned that
the patient was Roman Catholic. We know that
his church struggles with issues related
to withdrawal and withholding of life sustaining
care as evidenced by Pope John Paul's comment
about Teri Schiavo and the position he held
about the quality of his own physically compromised
life.
My sense is that this last minute stand
was disturbing on some level to the perception
of peace and harmony as this poor man came
to the end of his life (which is a major
goal of palliative care.) It might well have
been destructive. The skilled nursing facility
needs to have clear policy that prohibits
such action from staff, and I would recommend
disciplinary action for those who participated
in this if that policy exists. This story
does not suggest to me that the breech of
patient/staff boundaries can be attributed
to familiarity with the patient because of
their long term care of him. Each could have
spoken to him about their concerns in the
course of their day's work. This "group
of nurses who come in the night to persuade" sounds
more issues oriented than familial concern
for the patient. This, along with other forms
of staff impositions (including proselytization)
is not to be tolerated. Chaplains have a
role to model respect for patient values,
and they have a role by upholding corporate
policy and the quality assurance efforts
of their human resources department.
Stan Dunk, M.Div., BCC
Director of Pastoral Care
The Fort Hamilton Hospital
630 Eaton Avenue
Hamilton, OH 45013
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Reviews |
Sarah
Masters reviews the audio series
Understanding
Islam: A Listener’s Guide
This is an opportunity for chaplains to revisit the story of Islam through
the eyes of the renowned authority on comparative religions, Huston Smith.
Dr. Smith provides his listeners with wonderful insights into the most “persistently
misunderstood religion in the world.”He follows unique themes such
as how, as a new faith tradition, Islam received much of its inspiration
from Greek philosophy.
Understanding Islam: A Listener’s
Guide is a condensed version of Huston
Smith’s Religions of the World audio
series that included an in-depth examination
of Islam. This CD comes with an updated
introduction about this wisdom tradition.
Dr. Smith’s animated description of
the rights of women as put forth in the Qur'an,
and his thoughtful examination of the Qur'an’s
passages on both mercy and violence, are
two highlights that will resonate with the
listener.